I remember the day I realized I was over weight, the exact moment. I was in ballet class in my leotard in front of the mirror and just the week before everything was fine. This particular week my stomach was sticking out. I tried sucking it in but it just wouldn't go. I wasn't the only one that noticed. Right after class my dad told me I was "starting to get a pot" and that I needed to watch what I ate. I think I was about six at the time.
I've tried every diet from Atkins to Zone
I even tried Phen-fen diet pills.
I even took the prescription diet pill, Phen-fen, for a year, I was losing weight but after a while I stopped losing on that too. I didn't want to stop though for fear of gaining it all back. Then they discovered that this drug causes a serious lung disease and I stopped immediately.
For the first time. I trusted my body.
I delivered a healthy 10lb 1 oz baby girl. I weighed less after delivery then when I had started. Although I didn't purposefully do it, I quickly resumed my old habits. IT's because I did it all for love of my child, not myself.
My First Obesity Related illness
My first obesity related illness. I thought I was dying. When the ER doctor asked me what I had eaten, my medical training kicked in, I knew why he asked, I knew what he thought was the problem. Gallstone pain is usually brought on by a high fat meal. I simply replied "I'll concede it was a high fat meal"
After that I stuck to a crazy-low fat diet. It was bland and unappealing, dry and without variation. Very easy to stick to though with the threat of searing pain looming over you with every bite. I put off surgery for about 6 months so I could use the pain as incentive to stick to my diet. I lost about 30 pounds then plateaued. I rejoined weight watchers because at this point I was just angry, If I had to eat this way I should be losing more weight. I gave up juice and measured my pasta and rice. I actually got my 25lb pin for the first time. I was feeling great. I started walking the 3 miles to meetings. I walked every day rain or shine and eventually joined a gym when it got too cold. I discovered spinning and loved it. I actually enjoyed exercising and for the first time I enjoyed clothes shopping. My family reminded me "we're big boned people" " you have a large frame" " you don't have to worry about being a size ten." After spending my whole life believing my bare skeleton could never fit into a size ten, I had lost the weight and became an eight just to prove everyone wrong. I was a size eight at 150 pounds. My approved range from weight watchers was 139-167 pounds.
Even after losing 100 lbs, I wasn't happy.
IT crept back up slowly at first, then I had some real life stress. I had a flood in my home, another flood, and then started divorce proceedings all in the span of 3 years. I understand the impact of stress on eating very well.
I was embarrassed and I felt like such a failure. I was extremely disappointed in myself. I set out on a mission to learn why this happened to me, a very smart health care provider with all the knowledge of nutrition and metabolism at my fingertips. I set out to learn what I could and create something that would work for me and others so no one would ever suffer the shame and frustration I was feeling.
My Life Has forever Changed for the better.
What I learned in the Professional Eating Psychology Program forever changed my life
I learned so much about why we eat what we do despite what we know. I also learned the major reason for my weight re-gain. I had never really felt like a thin person. I never loved and accepted my body the way it was. Even at my thinnest I hated the extra skin. I realized half-way though this class that In my dreams I was always at my heavier weight. When I was a size eight I looked at photos of myself and thought I looked different. I never really felt like the thin body was me and that the larger body was not me. Instead of looking like me, I thought I looked like me only thin.
I went on to do a lot of independent research on this very subject. I have since that point in time, been consistently losing weight, while giving up absolutely nothing I love. I never feel deprived, I indulge when I want to. My food tastes better, as I have learned to identify quality. I became motivated not by fear, shame, or disgust by love and joy. I have learned to cook better, and my family is much happier for that too.
I feel great. I enjoy exercising and I love my body. I'm seeing my heavier photos as "me only heavier" and looking at the thinner photos simply as "me" The changes I have made give me a sense of total comfort with who I am and how I eat.
I have no anxiety about re-gaining what I've lost. I am not in a rush. It's been a very slow process, but the results are very real. I love and appreciate my body and care for it so much better than I ever have in my entire life.
And Now I'm so excited to share with you
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